this is what i wrote.

hello.

i sat down to write this and suddenly i have no idea what to say.

how odd.

i suppose that i want to write something significant, something that will eventually be posted on blogs and quoted in books and used in ad campaigns. something that will be studied in English classes and used in inspiring speeches. I want to write. wow, woah, hold up. did I seriously just say that? did i seriously just decide my future? i want to write. I want to write.

i thnk it's just the mood i'm in. just the way i'm feeling right now. sometimes i wish that everyone acted on feelings like that. if everyone acting on impulse, on the way they feel for a fleeting moment, how different would everything be? What would happen if we didn't know there was a future, if we only acted for today?

but everyone's says that don't they? everyone thinks that it's how we humans should be, living in the moment, not looking too far ahead. if that's the case, and that's how we're meant to be living, then why the fuck am i legitimatly terrified of my future? Fucking hell. Sometimes I just lie awake at night thinking about it. it sometimes catches me off guard. I could be out, partying, drunk, dancing and i'll think about it and be so consumed by it that all i want to do is lie in bed and cry and pretend like nothing else exists.

oh wow, emo much?

it's 9:11 & I'm completly lost.

I've already written about what i want.

I'm also gonna write about what I need.

I'm also gonna write about what I have.

I needed to write this down.

I have no idea why I wrote this down.

It is insignificant.