Away...

tomorrow i'm going camping.

for a while.



no technology.

no toilets.

no showers.



i am beyond excited.



bash is going to hate me by the end.



i cannot wait.

i've missed you.

i love you.

xx

went out for piercing's birthday + mechanical animal gig.

went nuts for the band...yet again.

question: how do they get better everytime?

question: why i am i their actual stalker?

met the guitarist & hugged the drummer.

actually star struck.

is this allowed?

famous is hot.

arrogant, but attractive.

pash. me. please.

tuesday nights on chapel street.

the night is dead.

ended up in bed quite earlish.

brilliant chat with cutie though.
worth it.

"that alarm going off is the worst thing that's ever happened to us"

We could be very happy together...

just me & hugh in a house.
that's all we need.
*melts*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSQ8Xh8dW40

watch this.

(cheers snuggle)

"she's smiling now. she thinks she's safe. quickly, quickly, inject the poison. let it run through her veins, let it hurt her & remind her of what she's done. selfish bitch. how dare she smile. how dare she forget. enjoy limbo fucker."

It's Friday...

(sickboots)

if you ditch i'll be a bit upset.

enjoy it.

photo stolen from a very hairy cat.

she is awesome.

in a rush.

in a rush.

bag breaks.

bag breaks.

shit everywhere.

shit everywhere.

crack the shits.

crack the shits.

swing bag.

swing bag.

hole in wall.

hole in wall.

fuck fuck.

fuck fuck.

Regina Spektor...

Bad Karma...

i wish i wasn't like this.

Mad Hatter...

www.myspace.com/mechanicalanimal

listenlistenlistenlistenlistenlistenlistenlistenlistenlistenlistenlisten.

FTF does La Roux...

thursday night - went to see bare with the uni kids.
terrified that they'd hate it.
once that chick's top came off they were actually pretty interested.
was once again amazing by their general loveliness.

bridie's for a quick drink.
heard stories of india.
want to goooooooo.

"i actually find vomit really fascinating"
weirdest thing ever uttered.

zackattack drove me to seven, despite his total lack of knowledge of melbourne.
how sweet.

paid $18 to get into seven.
searched for frenchie.
waited for a toilet.
17 mins later a guy & a girl walk out.
note to self: sex in club toilets make you seem like a WHORE.

continued search.
spent a good 24mins searching.
bumped into his ex aka my #3 hater.
bumped into awkskid. it was awkward.

finally found frenchie.
stayed for about 30mins.
then went home.
i hate that i wasted $18.

"so we're all catching a cab home together yeah? and we'll SPLIT it yeah?"



friday.
short came over.
cooked him lunch.
me = 50's housewife.

left the house.
bought an awesome bag & awesome shirt from the op shop.
bumped into frenchie.
caught the train with him.

got to caufeild.
realised i left the LA ROUX tickets at home.
freaked the fuck out.
got off the train, called mama, papa & sister.
no help.

got the train back.
walked home.
grabbed the tickets.
marched back.
caught train to YABC.

so annoying.

went to LA ROUX.
tried to get into the standing area.
slight fail.
snuggle lost her wallet (N)
felt partially responsible.

LA ROUX WAS AMAZING.
minus the fact she only played for 45mins.
still, tigerlily, in for the kill, fascination & bulletproof = wow.


back to the ferns.
love discussions.
flexibilty discussions.
general laughs.
all in the best bed in the world.


saturday.
work. not so nice.

shiobans that night.
minor dress freak out.
all was fixed.

met the fam (+ & - a few) at the station.
train & taxi.

"hey mr taxi driver man, what's your name?"
"cliff, jump off sometime"

free slushies = win.
not enough food = loss.
several drunken d&ms = win
bonding with doctor = mega win.
reminding snuggle = win.

hung out with BT.
so much love.
sat around singing le mis.
yessssssssss.


short drove us home.
this happens too often.

back to best's.
pro sick call to work.

gangsta basically died.

3 hour sleep.
sneaky shower.
off to work for the CPCA.

seedyseedyseedyseedy.
massive headache x screamiung children x awkward collegues x no sleep = death.

could not pronouce anyone's name.
biggest fail EVER.

freaked out that i hadn't done enough uni work.
wrote journal entries/journal essays.

crashed.


still, it's just a little crush.
don't get your hopes up.
don't be too keen.
don't be obvious.


"home is wherever you are..."

i love you best friend.

seriously.

i love you more than my own life.

every little thing, is going to be alright.

Hey there cutie...

"never doubt my love for you, do you hear me? never doubt it."

i've said this to you before & i'll say it again.
i love you cutie.
never doubt my love for you, do you hear me? never doubt it.







"we jumped off the high cliffs, and splashed down below..."

Family...

it's such a rarity.
something almost never found in a million lifetimes.
fights do not exist.
hate does not exist.
love overpowers.
how did this happen?
no one knows.
we tripped, we fell, into this place, this whirlpool of personalities & happiness.
we don't know how we got there.
but now we can't see ourselves being anywhere else.
acceptance & freedom, it's the daily routine.
laughter & discussions, never forgotten.
sober or drunk, it never matters, it's basically the same.
minus a bit of chucking & pashing.

do i know how lucky i am?
probably not.
do they know how much i love them?
probably not.

they've changed my life.

These kids...

stunner & coolkid are so talented i could scream.

get on this shit.

sickboots.blogspot.com

seriously.

Slight problem...

i think i like uni.
heck, i may even love it.
reasons:
-friends. new friends.
-scottish tutor.
-lecturer on crack.
-good food.
-great people.
-casual.
-cute boy(s)

however, i have not done any work.
this could be a major factor.

things are slowly getting better, slowly becoming ok, but it'll never be the same again.
fuck.

La Roux this Friday.
waiting with breath that is baited.

"nobody gave us names..."

Profoundly amazing...

i'm actually taking his advice.

i'm actually feeling better.

i'm actually a bit ok now.

i'm actually considering how i can express my love for him.

i actually cannot.

he helped more than he will ever know.

"time heals all wounds"

you're profoundly amazing.

Please know...

that i'm thinking of you & him.

thanks cutie.

you actually made me feel a little better.

thanks best.

you're the best.

thanks gangsta.

i love you.

thanks soap.

you distracted me.

were an outsider.

made me smile.

thanks bash.

you will never know.

never know how much.

because it's indescrible.

please stop crying

ouchouchouchouchouchouch.

why does it hurt so much?

ouchouchouchouchouchouch.

blogs fuck everything up.


fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.


i want to fix everything.

cryingcryingcryingcryingcrying.

i would not have survived without you.

i'll do my usual hazy recollection of the week/weekend when i can sit still and concentrate.

tomorrow perhaps.

in other news my room is revoltingly messy.

Sometimes...

it's a little bit fun to be a little bit of a whore.

Come snuggle with disney...

she's the kind of girl you love to love.
the one who makes your heart burst.
the kind you will treasure.
the girl who affects the people around her.
she makes them better because she makes them happy.
she's kinda like the mother of the family.
she calmed my nerves.
she evapourated my tears.
this one's a keeper.
i'm lucky to have her.

he's the all rounder.

the one that everyone loves.

the joker, the cool kid, the nerd.

most popular one at school, but not for being a dick.

he's the funniest & the most creative.

the one i never believed i'd get close to.

i value him above all else.

i love boyfriendships & he is one of the reasons why.

i just thought i'd like him for a while.

i think i'll love him for a bit longer than that.

if you could just come back right now that's be greaaaat.

thanks.

they say 'just be yourself. smile & you'll be fine'. fine. i'll be fine.

so why am i still shitting myself?

"let the dead raise their heads & the dying leave their
beds. she didn't believe what her mother said & she climbed out the window
in the darkness"

Ok, wow....

that storm was fucked up.


cannot even express it.



THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW/LIVING IN SIBERIA/ACTUAL NATURAL DISASTER.



got into the city to meet favorite, madkid & tin for moomba.
got off at melb cent to get boost.
line was too long, about to walk into swanston st when...BANGCRASHBOOM
hail hail hail hail hail
rain rain rain rain rain
wind wind wind wind



stuff was floating down the goddamn street.
i hate to admit it, but i was actually frightened.



ran through the rain to catch a train.
"sorry, we're not stopping at southern cross as part of the roof has collapsed"
piles of hail = looks like snow = 1900's russia.



flinders street was leaking.
stopped & saw some break dancers aka dish.
gave 'em a dollar 'cause they/he made me smile.



met up with them.
favorite was soaked.
madkid was soaked.
tin was soaked.
SO WET.



went & got grill'd.
witnessed the damage
fallen roofs/flooded streets/general debris.



attempted to go down the subway.
it looked like this:




















"can we go in? i wanna go in. let's go in!"
"oi, that roller door is obviously there for a reason so why don't you piss off?"









trains weren't running.
tin & i waited in the rain eating stolen lollipops.
"it's a natural disaster, do whatever you want man!"


finally they started working again.
i really hate stupid teeny bopper muzzas.


my feet had those water wrinkles.

like i said FUCKED UP!



"so dysfunctional..."

If...

you say you're going to text someone then you should.
otherwise shit goes down.
and people can't go places.


"But we'd go dancing, and he'd hold me tight, he was breath, he was water, he was air, he was light, but in the morning, we were sober."

Humpf...

"Why is it that we see what we wanna believe, but we don't believe what we see?"

"Because we have hope. Because we wanna believe in the good. Because usually the truth just sucks."

i really would like it if the rest of season 5 would work.

i'm not going to let you fuck up your life.

i want you but i want your happiness more.

stop.

I Wonder...

(fashiontoast)

-if it's rude that i'd rather go out with $23.50 than save money & go to an awkward party wth people who, indeed i love, but who i feel...odd around. favorite might make for a better time.

-if i should stop caring so much about what other people think.

-how swan can be THAT talented.

-if i'm jealous.

-why i wasn't chosen.

-why maccas needs to be eaten at 1am.

-how swan/mechanical animal came up with lyrics that are profoundly amazing.

-if wishes come true.

-how you know that Karma has been repaid.

-why the sound of rain & wind whilst tucked up in bed is oh-so-comforting.

"RED RUM"

Maybe...

we could all run away together?

Go Son...

o-week.


made a friend.


met the boyfriend for 2010.


it'll happen.








went to this

with gangsta, disney & best.

fantastic night.

got best dressed.

got photos.

got free cupcakes.

movie stopped halfway through.

awks.

went back to disney's.

saw disney's actual acting skills.

beyond impressed.

off to see mechcanical animal tonight.

shit's gonna go off.

"i better not be late, or i'll miss my important date..."

she's so far above the rest she's dancing with the moon & the stars.

she comes back to earth with the milky way in her hair.