i tried very hard not to kiss you today. i hope you couldn't tell.

every time i talk to you i feel like i'm annoying you.

one day i want you to see yourself through my eyes.

see how much i admire you & worship you
marvel at you. how beautiful you are.
you amaze me.

i was so ready
it had pretty much left my mind
the thoughts had dissappeared
he was good distraction too

your belated good luck
his neil armstrong remark
i know you just miss the way i made you feel
how i made you feel about yourself

that's ok
that's what i am here for
i am here to love
that is my passion and purpose

half of me wants to be your friend
half of me wants to go back to it all
gosh, we were good.
so much of us was so so good

none of this is killing me yet
i'm controlling myself quite well
maybe i'm growing up
being realistic is becoming a strong suit of mine

if you didn't deserve it i wouldn't do it
how dare anyone make you feel less than what you are

i never know how to end these things
i suppose i feel like i could write on forever
and why shouldn't i?
barely anyone will read this
so i say that this is unfinished.
perhaps it will never be complete.
who knows.

my sister got me the maddest necklace from turkey.

love that kid. even if she never hangs up her towels.

i think it is my life calling to be a white female kanye west impersonator.