i want a bigger room. i want you to buy me flowers. i want to not be jealous. i want my fringe re-cut. i want to see where i'll be in 10 years. i want to see where you'll be in 10 years. i want to go on a roadtrip. fuck that, i want to drive until i feel like stopping. i want to see a clownfish again. i want to ride an elephant again. i want to get tanned. i want things to stay the same. i want things to change. i want to make presents for my friends. i want better feet. i want to have a massive fucking cry. i want to tell you how much i love you. i want to ask you what i did wrong. i want to go sailing. i want to eat fish & chips on the beach while the sun sets. i want to be sailor moon. i want to be rich. i want to change the world. i want to crawl into a hole and dissappear. i want to witness my own funeral. i want to eat better. i want to be more flexible. i want one of my dreams to come true. i want to ride a horse. i want to stare at the stars. i want an ice cream. i want to hear every single thing every single person has ever said about me. i want to be analysed. i want to do a brilliant audition. i want to have an epiphany. i want to kiss you. i want you to want me like i used to want you. i want to forget that you ever looked at me like that. i want to have a punch on. i want face paint. i want a new job. i want to get drunk. i want you to stop being a pussy and tell me what the fuck is up with us. i want to go to fiji with my best fucking friends and just swim and laugh. i want to build a kickass cubby house. i want to see you dance. i want you to realise that you weren't the only one who got hurt out of all that. i want you to see how beautiful you are. i want to want to help you, but sometimes i feel like i just can't do it. i want those sunglasses back. i want to know if you enjoy me as much as i enjoy you. i want more jewellery. i want to be neater. i want to do zumba. i want to be a muse. i want to make my own clothes. i want to write into le love. i want to know why i actually give a shit when i see a photo of you two kissing. i want to go to confession. i want to volunteer. i want to lie under a blanket and tell secrets. i want to have some good secrets. i want to be trusted. i want to be able to accept and defeat conflict. i want a baby duck that stays a baby forever. i want to be a photographer. i want to be a dj. i want someone to say 'i feel lucky to know her'. i want this to never fall apart. i want you to stop annoying me. i want you to come home! i want to find out what my sister actually gets up to. i want someone related to me to have a baby. i want to explore...something. i want to be a monkey for a day. i want to be a bird for a day. i want to be unique. i want to stop caring what you think. i want to be able to grab every single moment i have been happy and put it in a jar so that i can relive them when i feel like no-one loves me or when i feel like i have no direction. i want to lock the family in a house for a week so that we have to spend time together and re-fucking-bond. i want to keep some traditions alive. i want to go camping. i want to show you how amazing i think you are. i want to tell someone, anyone, that sometimes, i really just don't care and i don't put in the effort i'm supposed to because i don't love you like i used to, but i can't because even thinking that makes me feel like a terrible person. i want to know why our friendship is so fucking different to every other friendship i have. i want you to stop stealing my friend's jokes. i want to tell you that i'm not the only one who's concerned about it. i want to give you the family life you deserve. i want to tell you that even though i love you more than words, i will never be equal to you; the world has far bigger plans in mind for you. i want to see you more often. i want to stop them bullying you. in fact, i want to punch them in the fucking face. i want a mentor. i want to visit a castle. i want to get a HD. i want to be as driven as you. i want to see inception. i want to be able to fall asleep with someone and not have to warn them that i snore. i want to stop being a bitch. i want a good cup of tea. i want fresh sheets every day of the week. i want to actually do this stuff instead of just writing about it on my blog.