sometimes i just really fucking dislike you.

in january before uni starts up again i want to go to thailand for 10 days.
i want to go with two of my closest & oldest friends.
i want to lie on the beach & buy cheap clothes & read 10 different books.
i want to relax & party & lie by the pool & create hilarious memories.

in the mid year holidays next year i want to go to america.
i want to go with some of my favourite people in the world.
i want to go to disneyland & times square & urban outfitters.
i want to visit hannah in california & emilio in new york.

whether or not this will all happen depends on money.
people.
dedication.
organisation.

iwanttomakethishappen.

never been so dressed up for work before...

but it's better to be overdressed than underdressed right?

well that's my theory anyhow.

i have begun to realise that i will find any excuse to dress up.

and i'm ok with it...

the paper cuts

the cheating lovers

the coffee's never strong enough

i know you think it's more than just bad luck.

http://www.scumness.blogspot.com/

check this mofuckah out.

great blog. great photos. this photo makes me feel like ice cream.

you are simply the best human being i know.
i cannot and do not compare you to anyone else.

Beautiful soul.

dear best friend.

happy birthday, my beautiful best friend.

love your best friend.

give me my robe, put on my crown; i have immortal longings in me.

i am fire and air; my other elements i give to baser life.

the stroke of death is a lover's pinch, which hurts and is desired.

part of my shakespeare monologue for uni. i am in love with it.

if i were a famous photographer/blogger, this babe would be my muse.

i am happy & content.

no really i am.
had an emo post a while back there, but you must understand that this blog is mainly here so that i can unload all of my shitty angsty stuff onto the internet instead of onto my wonderful friends.
plus this is how i am nowadays anyway, i'll cry one minute and then be peachy keen jelly bean for like another four days.


fuk da horm0nezZ.

there you go. i will probs delete it later because it doesn't make me happy.
then again maybe i won't.

hmmmmmm.

my heart is weighing me down. it's too full.

when people ask how you are i tell them that you're wandering. not lost, just wandering, looking for your place, answering questions & tyring to comprhend the world.

i miss you every day but i know that this is what you need to do.

this is what you have to do, your heart needs you to.

and i know that you still love me & you know how much i love you.

sometimes i just wish that that were enough, but i know that it isn't.

you'll always be a part of my soul.

what i want from you, is to empty your head

but they say be true, don't stay in your bed


and we do what we need to be free


and it leans on me like a rootless tree.

what i want from us is empty our minds

but we fake, we fuss and fracture the times

we go blind when we've needed to see

and this leans on me like a rootless tree.

waiting for the day that you realise i'm really quite insane & thus run very very far away.

i miss you. this is so lame.
i mean, i knew what i was getting myself into so i can hardly complain.

but still, i just want to see more of you even though i know you see me as much as you can.

i'm sorry for making you feel bad!

i'm sorry for smothering you & being obsessed with you!

i wish that i had enough motivation to throw myself into uni work to distract myself from the fact that i miss you.
but alas, i'm terrible at life & can't bring myself to do such a thing.

i wonder if one day i will actually suceed at something.