i love a good sleep in.

How to beat a nightmare...

last night i had a really bad dream.

tonight i had to walk home alone in the dark.

how did i defeat my fears?

cranked up lady gaga and marched down the street in time with the music mouthing the words, tossing my hair & making love to an imaginary camera.

it worked.

baby likes to dance in the dark.

i really had a big moment today on the bus where all i wanted to do was get up & dance like all the lights were off.

dinner with the family tonight.

brain twin makes me happy.

i can't believe that anyone would do this to you.
you're the most amazing person & friend i know.
you need to know that i love you.

and i'll hug you into oblivion on friday.

Mech_madness...

friday: had an 18th.
have decided i don't like you when you're drunk.

saturday: most fucked up & amazing night of my life.
-mechanical animal filmclip (www.myspace.com/mechanicalanimal)
-mad hatter - alice in fuckedupland
-'tea party' involved getting jam tarts smoshed into my tits, pouring tea into hook's mouth, jelly going in best's mouth & my mouth.
-jelly bath. no words.
-slipping & dying.
-everyone gradually getting drunk. then wasted.
-hooking up with hook. involved being lifted into the air and held. oh. mah. gawd.
-power happy meals before going home.
-resulted in me having a bruise the size of africa.

sunday: brain twins 18th.
-pretty good.
-i love brain twin.

monday: uni BBQ.
-great food.
-still can't figure zackattack out.
-unibestie, dimples, zackattack & politician are fucking awesome.

I'd just to add...

that i really miss coolkid.
even though i only see her when we go out together.

also, i need a new job.

and i really would like to go to central australia with snuggle.

because i love her & i know we wouldn't fight.

and it'd be amazing.

wanting what you can't have can cause problems.

hey, boy, i actually really have a crush on you.

so please kiss me & confess your secret love for me.

thanks.

Vertical Rhythm...

literally wetting my pants with excitement and happiness about the weekend.

oh, yeah and i really love my friends.

i was about to say how lovely it was that i was lying in bed, on my laptop, listening to the rain.

but then it stopped raining.

sigh.

I realise...

that it's very weird to say this, but i'm really really glad i met you.

you're all very brilliant.

101...

i wagged uni today.

woaaahhh rebel.

186.48mins...

i'm excited about your life because you're going to change the world.

Ef & Panda...

i think we're very very lucky.

Today...

the world smiled upon you.

and you deserve it beyond belief.

because you are amazing.

and the best.

Movies are fun...

this. movie. is. fucking. awesome.

see. it.

NOW.

frenchie = redmist & i = kick ass.

Today is Saturday...

rocked out at the mech_gig last night.
this resulted in 2 things:

mechanical animal getting in the finals for bandtasia.

my neck being in extreme pain for the rest of the night & all of today.

my head is on a constant angle.

ouch ouch ouch ouch.

doing nothing tonight.

work at 8:30am.

YUCCCCCCCK.

i think i'll have a bath tonight.

just thought i'd share.

Bored...

they don't really connect but they sure are pretty...

i can't decide what i want to have for lunch.

It didn't really happen...

didn't really end up going out last night.
kinda annoying.
but considering i have no money, it was probs for the best.

SO.
went to the arts center.
freaked that i was in the wrong place.
but then fox & zackattack arrived.
WE WERE ALL IN THE WRONG PLACE.

unibestie was at the malthouse alone throughly confused.

ran to the theatre to make it in time.
gefforey rush was there.
oh. mah. gawd.

sat down.
stunned & amazed by Elizabeth aka the play.

saw madz at interval.
nice to see her :)

second half: just as good.
even better because they sung damien rice.

decided to go to rooftop.
up 79083924 stairs.
pretty frickin' awesome place.
sat & chatted & drank a bit.

my old insecurities are coming back...
i don't know if i'm feeling tha age gap.
or if i'm just paranoid.

train home with unibestie.
still can't figure zackattack out.

walked home, prayed for a taxi.
had to pee behind a bush.
don't judge.

watched zumba informercials.
want $129.49 so that i can do zumba.



yabc starts again tonight.
about THAT excited to see everyone.
yayayayayayayyayaaay.

mech_gig tonight as well.
pah-umped.

"can't take my eyes off you..."

i feel like i haven't seen my family in FOREVER.

tomorrow night i'm going out with my uni friends.

stories will follow...

Blushing...

he pinched my cheeks & now i can't stop.

get stupid.

we all know my feelings on stunner.

hint: i call her stunner.

but there's another kid who WILL befamous & make an impact on the world.

www.ohjamiee.blogspot.com

HOLY. FUCK.

SAH. TALENTED.

"if they don't like it, fuck 'em"

Just a few things...

i spend too much money on food.

frenchie gave me an awesome jacket.
tally of compliments on it: 7.

doctor is back in melbourne.

i've already planned your birthday present.

BAMERCISE.
by easy off bam.
cleaning exercises.
what the actual fuck.

i think he flirted with me.

i don't know what to do.

i waited for the later bus just to avoid awkward conversation.

i hate the story i wrote.

i miss disney.

i am selfish & self-centered.
and i hate it.


"cheers darlin'..."

normality.

please.

i know it hurts.

but please.

i am terrified for you.
i wish i could help more.
i wish i could fix you.

i need to stop falling in love.

Happy place...

you know the one.

the home away from home.

the place where you feel safe.



toc is my happy place.



grateful for the memories.
grateful for the people.



sit on the beach & don't think.
come home smelling of smoke.