obsessed with taking selfies.

i am so pathetic about boys oh my god i am an actual joke.

i just have so any uncertain feelings and i wish i could just pinpoint what i want and what i should do about all this and no one needs to hear my bullshit right now and i don't even want to write it down and i feel like shit and i don't know what to do and i am so uncertain and fuck.

HELLO. THIS IS MY NEW RING. I BOUGHT IT TODAY AFTER I HAD LUNCH WITH MY VERY AWESOME AND BRILLIANT FRIEND GLENN. HE IS PROBS THE MOST TALENTED WRITER I KNOW AND YOU SHOULD DEFS CHECK OUT HIS BLOG. I AM TYPING IN CAPTIALS BECAUSE I HAVE HAD A LOVELY DAY AND I AM NOW PLANNING A SUPRISE FOR A LOVELY BOY BECAUSE IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY AND HE JUST FINISHED HIS THESIS. BASICALLY, I AM JUST IN LOVE WITH MY LIFE AT THE MOMENT AND FELT LIKE SHARING THIS WITH YOU ALL.

i tried very hard not to kiss you today. i hope you couldn't tell.

every time i talk to you i feel like i'm annoying you.

one day i want you to see yourself through my eyes.

see how much i admire you & worship you
marvel at you. how beautiful you are.
you amaze me.

i was so ready
it had pretty much left my mind
the thoughts had dissappeared
he was good distraction too

your belated good luck
his neil armstrong remark
i know you just miss the way i made you feel
how i made you feel about yourself

that's ok
that's what i am here for
i am here to love
that is my passion and purpose

half of me wants to be your friend
half of me wants to go back to it all
gosh, we were good.
so much of us was so so good

none of this is killing me yet
i'm controlling myself quite well
maybe i'm growing up
being realistic is becoming a strong suit of mine

if you didn't deserve it i wouldn't do it
how dare anyone make you feel less than what you are

i never know how to end these things
i suppose i feel like i could write on forever
and why shouldn't i?
barely anyone will read this
so i say that this is unfinished.
perhaps it will never be complete.
who knows.